First of May Flower Day…

When I was a little girl, the first of May was a special day for me.  I would tend to flowers in my mom's gardening areas in anticipation of making a crown of flowers for Mother Mary, and for the entirety of the month of May I would keep an alter on the TV in our living room devoted to Mother Mary, keeping the flowers in a vase a-fresh.   

Beautiful Living Crown for Mother Mary

A fond memory for me rooted in the intensity of how Catholic rituals of the 50's impacted my inner love for the nurturing quality of our Creator. I've found a gem of a link to a PBS special ( a favorite TV station of mine) that parallels my childhood experience!

 "The Catholic tradition of venerating the mother of Jesus includes the Coronation of Mary -- the May crowning, it's called. The practice, which is not as prevalent as it used to be, goes back to the 16th century and involves the placing of a wreath of flowers on an image of Mary."   -LUCKY SEVERSON

Though I have left the dogmatic leash of Catholicism behind me for the freer territory of SELFGnosis, my  devotion to all that is Good and Pure and Loving in life is as sincere now as it was then. 

I fondly remember those sweet innocent moments of May, and the joy it brought me to create a vigil for Beloved Mother Mary for myself and my family, especially considering how generally unaccepted my unique expressions were to my parents who struggled to understand their "unusual child." 

(They could have taken the attitude of embracing the surprises a bellwether child brings to a family, rather, fear dominated their choice and "trying to change me for the better" dominated and I suffered rejection where there could have been acceptance.  Clearly another story to be told at another time, yet, entwined in this magical memory for me.)   

It was amazing that my mom gave me permission for this event, which I maintained for years.  I don't remember when I stopped this ritual so deeply moving  and meaningful to me… much like the day Jackie Paper ceased to visit Puff the Magic Dragon.

Interestingly, I cry every time I hear that song, and I often wonder what within me is being elicited by that melody touching me so deeply and hauntingly. 

I think in posting this I've connected to one of those precious moments that my heart beholds with the same mix of sadness Puff felt, "his head...bent in sorrow, green scales fell like rain," and "he ceased his fearless roar"  - for something lost as something else was entered…

Does not all our hearts wax deeply with the passions of Cosmic sentiment,  moving our inner tides to tears of sadness and joy as only our Inward abiding Presence can do, anchoring the uniqueness of our experiences with the "deposit" in the collective consciousness of HUmanity that is made all the richer for our contribution?

All to Love,

Sharon

book

http://www.iparenting.com/dad/5031.php

 Article on Peter Yarrow, author of song and his concern for safety of children & respect with this resource link:

http://www.operationrespect.org/index.php

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A cute animated version with words that a granddad made for his beloved grandchild: http://www.odwyer.com/chloe/puff/puff.html

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http://www.canada.com/cityguides/toronto/story.html?id=22649443-edd4-4c59-9c84-7adf373d64f2&k=67429

 Article about how this song IS NOT about POT as so many have assumed, and how the book portrays true and intended meaning.

The Wiggle Me Thin is in!! Yea, it about time. 10 Minutes equals 2 hours of exercise! 

Yea, We WILL SEE…I'll be reporting to you live, scam or real deal, once my unconditioned body gets a fair "shake at it."  

'Th-th-th-that's all folks!'

Stay Tuned-in and not out…       

All to Love,

Sharon

PS Some Porky Pig nostalia-fun: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Porky_Pig

Hello My Friend,

I know I am one of the voices that fell off the cyberspace pages and into one of seeming silence.  Yet, I have been reading posts from my email.

All along I was educating myself in hopes of making my cyber experiences more enjoyable like reading on what blogging is and is not, on what is  a podcast, how to do this and that because I could not get my plans from my head through the keyboard, and all the "rules" of computer land" to work as I was intending.

Then, I got confused before I got it sorted out (always a possibility when you "dive into an unknown" territory).  Ha ha...  I understand more now, but, I can't honestly say my skills are improved. Drats! 

I did get some powerful "Stuff" done, though, such as getting a non-profit set up, SELFGnosis classes started that are video-taped in anticipation of figuring out how to upload or use Skype/and webcams to have participants from anywhere able to participate and give feedback in future classes, and a book started.

This said, each time I've logged back onto this space, I noticed a different "feel" and I was not sure of what it meant; it wasn't especially comfortable, it was "strained" somehow and I respect such "red flags."  I pay attention to such things with an open mind and heart and allow Spirit to guide my understanding of what I am sensing.

I can tell you, the Spirit of this site does not have the same sense it did with Zaadz, that is NOT "in  your head."  I've not been able to "nail" this shift-in-feel with words that make me comfortable with what I am noticing. It has had the effect of curbing my participation to one of a more observing stance, a "taking in" and allowing MAI Inward Spirit to clarify.  I can be cautious when I sense a lack of clarity.

I am a very intense person of powerful inclinations and drive.  I happened to be verging on a major shift when Zaadz shifted.

Maybe my unintended break with posting (I felt maybe a week or so, then I was aware a month or so, then, well, you catch my drift, eh?) was Spiritually intentional because the change was enough to make me feel like an observer to a community I was a participant in before. When I tried to post, they would get "lost on upload", a VERY disappointing experience, indeed!

I still don't know what the "seeds" are, or what 'tagging" is, or what the "My Gaia" page thing is about (I can't put anything meaningful on the page, it seems to be a space for superficial stuff as best I can tell, and as such is of no interest to me, and I don't feel in integrity having such nonsense "connected" to my space implying it is meaningful to me.), and the lack of comments does feel like a "dead zone" because it is not a sign of connecting - commenting was more alive with expression before and that is the essence of communication itself, the lifeblood of a community that I hear you lamenting  about and hear you questioning what is behind this  loss…  I am wondering, too.

I sense you want to restore that communicating life, and so do I.  It was what made Zaadz really welcoming and special…worth the extra cyber effort to participate in, but when there is not linking of minds via communication, where is the communion?

Communion is at the heart of communication and at the heart of Spirits united to initiate change.  It feels less cohesive, that is a word that fits for me, and separative,  more like a "tribe of 'lone wolves' staking territory" than a place of let's join forces and act in a uniting way…something more like this is decidedly part of the shift I notice.  I arrived at this while posting in response to you…see how interaction is alive!?!

Initially, I wrote it off to my lack of computer savvy and my Right Brained structure/functioning.  Computers are far more left brained friendly. 

But, in reading your words, I knew you were feeling the same and struggling to understand it.

For me, upon returning, I felt the depth was not there in the same way.  It had a lot of superficiality I never encountered with Zaadz.  That made me reticent.  I felt it was safe from the stand point of not being a lurid hunting ground for sexual predators, but rather, I noticed more of a  "lets make money" feel that I did not find attractive.  I've been spammed a few  times from my Zaadz email and it is ONLY used on this site, soooo, ummm...that did raise my brow, and it should have, too, because mindlessness is not enlightened thinking!

I am about being, not "getting things; networking people into a functioning activity of co-creating change, not headhunting; laying axes at the heart or root of social problems, not picking apart the multudinous fruits thereof; working smart, not hard;  organizing "like mind" into doing, not talking about it; coalescing resources to get a job done, not making 'raping profits'; and maybe I am about 10-20 years out-of-synch with the readiness of people get beyond talking and into the doing… I look to sites like this for more of that readiness in people NOW. 

This is where this post starts and gets it motive and context, thus, CLICK THIS LINK & GO TO:

http://enlightenedthinker.gaia.com/blog/2008/5/if_could_report_the_news_in_your_world_what_would_you_share

All to Love,

Sharon

Interestingly Enough, I awoke this morning with insights about the Cosmic Question being more akin to,

"How to 'break the spell' of the virtual reality that people think is their daily REALity?  How to break that confounded entrainment of HUmanity's incessant preoccupation with externalizing REALity and identity, and the consequent never-ending need for more (not ENOUGH) ?"

The ego, of course, ponders "the big question" as being,

"to be or not to be?"

as the question to make peace with, but this is question isn't ENOUGH to penetrate the illusion in a way that gets to pierce to the heart of answering the 'to be' question with ENOUGH TRUTH to set the ponderer free!

While taking the illusion for granted and giving it the unexamined position of being the ground of what is REAL or not real, gives rise to framing the possible answers to that question with false premises of such as

to be what??

alive or dead? existent or non-existent? a personality or not?  a profit mongering maven or not?

This delusional pondering is a bottomless pit of creating the machinations of our mind's confused orientations and, thus, grappling with all the useless and mindless STUFF we end up creating like Waipv Taab posts about today

"I've had enough of the media, of reality shows, of pundits extrapolating on who's going to win the election, of President Bush's stupidity, I'm tired of talk of rising gas prices, and falling food production..."

WE DO NOT HAVE ENOUGH COSMIC UNIVERSAL TRUTH IN US.  To say this in a way others may find makes more sense, WE DO NOT HAVE ENOUGH GOD IN US.

So, Not Enough of SOURCE accepted and nurtured within us, leaves enough of us searching to fill the gap with STUFF of the illusion, and we wonder,

 "why we are so unhappy?"

How can the gap, created by separation from SOURCE ItsSELF,  ever be ENOUGH when the only thing that satiates is reconnection where there is MORE THAN ENOUGH forever more?

EH...Infinity is funny that way, never-ending and always plenty, making ENOUGH a moot point!

Ah, ENOUGH for now,

All to Love,

Sharon

I woke up with the words that address the Zaadz and Gaia change:

Zaadz orientation point was on responding to people's need and to facilitate the generation of  like minds connecting and network for change as well as providing a platform for serious dialogue of Spiritual contention to ferret out the wheat and chaff of ideas and beliefs for more sophisticated understandings.  The seeds were the symbol of pure potential, for that is the primal force of life...in seeds.

Gaia orientation point is more on a corporate agenda of an externalization of attention away from the core of Human potential and onto the earth itself.  While this is a noble cause, it is ecological, not Human potential.

In other words, the reason 'they' bought does not equate with the reason Zaadz was founded.  They are not one and the same.  While parallels of connection exist between these two intentions, there are notable gaps of tension which are being felt as discontent,  and the root of the feelings of contention are made clear in different motives.

This is best not ignored, emotion without conscious expression and clarity eventually creates a pressure cooker of sorts, and communication usually flies out the window.  So this is eminently a good thing that words are now articulating the discontent.

There is an essential expectation to "bend to another mold." 

Zaadz was like free floating seeds letting what germinated unfold as an alive structure/function with focus on better formats for communicating and networking, friendly and playful with work, but clearly, lets get about the business of creating social change. Doing was in the background of all the talking.

Gaia is more corporate with profits more focused on being monetized not so much on people outcomes.  There is the diversions of entertainment to play and have fun over doing the work of social change, and talk at a superficial level is more prevalent.  The earth or environment is more emphasized leaving the Human potential at the back door.  The change is not one of shifting into higher gear, rather into a lower more out-focused gear.

That feels pretty clear to me, not necessarily complete, yet, at a primal level, I think the axe has struck the tap root. 

What we have noticed, is more lost souls finding their way to this site seeking hope, answers, and connection (to find connection points).  It is finding food (recipes), and games to clean up one's body and entertainment to be more pure, and paying attention to how one tends to their environment. 

It is a required step in coming to more dedicated Spiritual exploration, and it functions at higher order than the general crowd is used to.

It makes sense that many of the "think tank" people have been flying the coop.  This is to be expected.  Mouthing platitudes,  "spiritual correctness" that is akin to "political correctness" belies the rigors of serious inquiry because not all the 'be nice, accept everything is as it is "suppose" to be mentality is not Spiritually mature. 

It is like some kind of spiritual sanitization that sterilizes the thinking mind into a certain deadness where the Spirit is not as free.  This causes the "thinkers" to exit "stage right!"

Yet, it is true that less superficial stuff, and more depth will re-attract the more serious at heart.  Spirit is passionate and not bland or afraid of "hurting the feelings of other."  That is not to be misconstrued to mean name calling and cruelty are acceptable, because they are not the ways of Spirit, pure and simple.

I would not equate this transition with evolution because it is not.  It is a result of a sale, and it is the outcome of a business transaction where the  original founders intention is no longer "at the helm and calling the shots."  It is corporate and that is rather self-

explanatory.

Acceptance and making the most of what you can is wise and common sense.  This means voicing concerns is appropriate, too, for a community that is silent is not participating in the way the sails get set, right?

Does this not pull the disparate parts together into a focus the nails the concerns that are finding their way to the surface and finding words for their voice?

I can't write anymore,  I've got to go to bed.  I'll check in tomorrow, with Aley, weather permitting.  The TV Scare mongers are hyped up over bad weather.  I wish they would calm down and do their job without creating fear in the hearts of OK citizens.  Argh, ignorance does as ignore-ance does.

But, now I divert, so I say, "Good night."

All to Love,

Sharon

PS I was too tired and "punchy" to coordinate setting up links and I apologize.

This is addressed below, too.

A world in which every HUman is REconnected to Source; a world in which no HUman is suffering the delusion of separation as real ever again; WEi, the entirety of HUmanity are all HOME and living consciously as ONE, whether abiding in form or not!

That would mean,  categorically and absolutely,  only one kind of worldly experience, ONLY that which is God and no-thing else what would be being created. 

Some would call this world "Heaven on earth," some "Paradise," some "Eden"…  AND, I know that THIS world of my eventual desire IS the end-game, it is only a matter of our willing it so.

And, this Peaceful world begins with me, you, and you, and you… I ask, "What are we waiting for? Aren't you ready to be this happy and free again?" 

Carpe Diem! Decide it IS your time to embrace your SELFGnosis, and be about that as your primary business. 

Enough people deciding this with an, "I won't take 'NO' for an answer" conviction,

I am pretty sure

we will see this world I want to live in during my (and yours) lifetime. 

SWEET!

The "right " words that meet people where they are at

in such a way as to touch their hearts with TRUTH that sets them free,

delivers the "ah-ha" that gets them on the right track,

more REconnected with their Higher SELF,

motivated to COME HOME because they see that they CAN DO IT,

it is THEIR heritage,

and NOW IS the perfect time.

I am drawn to the Essential Spirit that Indwells another, beating our collective heart in a Universal beat that sings to our Universe the song of HUmanity, and currently, how we are singing of our plight of confusion and consequent descent into living pain and loss as our supposed destiny.

I am drawn to essential pain, and I am drawn help people wake-up from the "spell" of separation and realize how we are the creators of this pain and we can STOP it anytime now, AND NOW would be a terrific time to STOP!

I am drawn to simplifying the TRUTH, and I apprise myself daily of the skills to communicate with utmost simplicity the foolishness of our seeming reality and the  elegance our true REALity of being a race of creative beings of Light&Love. 

It is a choice we must collectively embrace CONSCIOUSLY as a choice we are making from moment to precious moment, only then can and will be choose more wisely to what is TRUE and joyous.

All to Love,

Sharon

Unexpectedly,

I've been consumed with a gardening, or rather landscaping project, that has had my complete attention.

In Oklahoma the weather can be unpredictable and extreme from hot and draught to intense thunderstorms with flash flooding, tornados or even the odd anomaly, ice storms.

Last week, it down poured and Will or I had to babysit the yard with a sump pump to alleviate flooding into our house at our back garage door.

Dealing with this was not on either of our agendas.  Yet, I realized this was not a problem we could afford to ignore, and, thus, my life was re-ordered to resolve this issue post haste!

I've been meeting with landscapers, and gardening counselors at local greenhouses to find a solution that could be immediately implemented.  WOW what a lot of work...I had to plant tons of "plugs" of various ground covers to stop our erosion and to encourage appropriate water drainage.

I am presently exhausted, I pushed myself to some physical limits in an effort to get this turf underway before the next storm(s).

Finally, I've got it planted, I'm recuperating, and hope to be back on track real soon.  I was amazed at the time that passed since I last posted.  If I had seen this project coming I would have posted to let you know I'd be out of touch for a bit.  Today is the first day I've even turned the computer on!

 It was not necessarily wisdom to push my physical limits, but the consequences of not getting it done ASAP were not something I wished to entertain either!

Sometimes, you just got to rise to the occasion and deal with what life puts before you.

Maybe if I get in the mood, I'll take some photos and share what I've accomplished.  For me, this was a big deal.  I am grateful, the standard heat of OK was not my companion during this work - that would have really done me in! 

(I am not a big fan of intensely hot weather, mosquitoes, ants, spiders, grubs, termites, moles/voles/gophers or vampish creatures; all of which have been keeping me some company during this project!)  I broke out in some kind of rash or hives which was not helpful either.

On the more pleasant side, I was being entertained by squirrels, birds galore, neighbor's dogs and cats, cool breezes, beautiful iris blooms, 3 trees, great people educating me, and Will, and, oh yeah, a few faeries and devas.  Thank Universe for the other side of the coin, eh?!

I think this will look very nice when it's grown into place giving our  yard an English garden look.  I am hoping in time the ground covers will become our grass, and we can put the lawnmower to rest.

All to Love,

Sharon